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Post by CowboyGuy on May 15, 2009 9:03:21 GMT -5
I went to Glen Abbey today To visit Raymond Minjarez I hadn't tried for years I didn't know where to go Because he lies in an unmarked grave
There was a tree All I remembered His mark, his place The resting place
"Oh we took that out years ago" I was told Eyes burning Frog erupting In my throat
I could only muster "Thanks anyway" Turned on heel Walked away I could have lingered I could have stayed I could have made them find him For me, But I couldn't
Two streams of salt Running down my face Aiming towards my broken heart
I'm so angry And conflicted Mixed up, frustrated All I wanted was my dad Confused and sad
How different would my life be? And would I still be me? A plot of empty grass Is all I have for history No memories Or mementos Nothing here for me
I wake up and I know death Predisposed darkness I know loneliness This certain sadness Never leaves me
It makes me weep And makes me lay Unspoken Why was he taken away
I color my life with dark blue I seek that which I never knew Seeking a ghost Or tall tale of a man My father That I never knew
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Post by Secret Scoobie on May 15, 2009 9:14:14 GMT -5
Phil this is really touching. Beautiful. Thank you for sharing. x EDIT: Omg that is so not the smiley I chose!!! I chose :unsure:
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Post by CowboyGuy on May 15, 2009 9:20:04 GMT -5
Thanks Scoob.
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Post by siredbyspike on May 17, 2009 3:00:18 GMT -5
Aw Phil, that is beautiful..and melancholy. Thanks for sharing, your pain really comes through in that- hugs to you!
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Post by CowboyGuy on May 18, 2009 13:29:37 GMT -5
Aw Phil, that is beautiful..and melancholy. Thanks for sharing, your pain really comes through in that- hugs to you! Thanks. I'm not much of a writer, and it's hard for me to put my thoughts down in a way that makes sense while being true to what I'm feeling at the same time. So with that, this was hard for me. But I think the most painful things sometimes provide inspiration for good works. I draw inspiration for paintings sometimes in that way.
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Post by Mathieu on May 18, 2009 13:37:04 GMT -5
This is very touching Phil, maybe I would cry if I was not at work right now... I have to hold my emotions.
I haven't lost my dad but some of my very close cousins have lost their dad (one of them was my Godfather) so I have an idea of where you're coming from, even if I haven't felt the pain the same way you have. It cannot compare.
Of course, everybody's story is different anyway.
Big hug to you.
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Post by CowboyGuy on May 18, 2009 16:43:31 GMT -5
Thanks Mat. The poem was about a day when I wanted to go visit him, and I had not been in years. I simply could not find his plot, and he has no headstone. There was a tree at one point, but it was since removed to make room for more plots. It was very upsetting for me, and I have not tried to go since.
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Post by Greer on May 18, 2009 16:49:15 GMT -5
Phil,
That was a beautiful poem. I started to tear up, it was so touching. I can understand how it could be therapeutic to one to be able to write down what you're feeling, and to let that pain come out. It's written beautifully. It must be very hard for you but you were able to create something here that was very touching and dark, and I really appreciated reading it. I can relate but not in the exact way as you can.
Thanks for sharing.
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